Sunday, April 18, 2010
Once again I will start out by apologizing I have not written in a long time. Although I am not really sorry, I just feel obligated to say I am sorry! Some carry over from childhood where I try to please everyone....but anyway still trying to outgrow that one. I have been busy with normal life and any free moment I have, the last thing I want to do is sit at my computer honestly!
I am so glad it is spring time, despite the abnormal amount of pollen it is so refreshing. The winter flowers were very happy at Easter so I will post a few pics tonight and the shrubs from last year are super happy and look wonderful.
So this year, my husband and I decided we will plant our own annuals ourselves, to get some exercise and hopefully enjoyment out of it. We have only done the two smaller of our five annual beds but we were very proud of ourselves! Reminded me of when we had little projects to do around the house, actually had time and gave use something other than work to focus on and to be proud of.
On the mommy front, we have now entered the three year old phase. A whole new ballgame, super fun because we can ride bikes, throw balls, and now join soccer lessons. However, I now understand why it is so easy to loose touch with your friends when they have children. The reality is children control your life! I am not complaining it has just taken me three years to adjust, and I am still not adjusted to the reality that I am no longer in control of my schedule. I remember working with mom's on projects way back when and I was always amazed at their ability to look at issues for what they were, small obstacles that would pass or change with time, no need to panic and have a fit (as I would always do). I so get it now. One minute Nicholas can be a mess, which translates to I am a mess and then the next he can be smiling. I am slowly learning to breathe when that little voice in me says, I am about to loose it. SLOWLY learning is the keyword here.
The book I have titled, "I was a good mom until I had children" sums up everything these days. Let's just say visions of me calmly talking to my child have been replaced with a constant, "Are you using your listening ears..", "Please don't touch that...", "I am going to count to three and if..." (I honestly wonder what will happen if I get to three, not sure yet but this one works everytime) An independent three year old and a bossy mom are not exactly always on the same wavelength. Thank God my husband is a patient person, otherwise our house would implode and we would be on the Saturday night news. I just have to keep reminding myself, "I am not 3 years old, therefore I do not have to respond as thougth I am 3"
So not much is going on here, Richard is in Key Largo for work (where I think I should be), Nicholas has been sick for a week and I am VERY ready for him to return to school tomorrow.
Hope all is well with everyone!